2:35am

i should really be studying, for ive 3 more chapters of physics to go and i really want to do well, if only because of the tedious hours my classmate spent writing out detailed solutions for questions and that 4 hour-long tuition he put in. o.0 not to mention uncle dennis' kind act of sending over the physics bible --- THE TYS!!! :D

but that aside, i really feel like posting, because ive not done it in a long long time. i dont suppose there will be a 'sequel' to the previous post, because i kinda forgot =( oh well.

hm. you know, sometimes i wish i had less choices to make. flipping through the different possibilites almost always gives me a headache at the end of the day, thanks to the very opinionated voices in my head. and even so, im still at a loss when the day is through, so that's hardly being productive, is it?

well, the point is.. i have many decisions to make at this point that will drastically affect my life in the future. im at the bone fide crossroads of my life and i know none the better. practicality or idealism? 2 years ago i would have barked IDEALISM in no time, but now i hesitate. i want both.. im greedy!!! =(

but as it is, you cant have your cake and eat it too. and i really dont want to be the kid in the playground again, running around from equiptment to equiptment, wanting to try all, but eventually going up on none because i spend so much time queue-jumping. ;/

and i really am a big carrot...