2:35am
i should really be studying, for ive 3 more chapters of physics to go and i really want to do well, if only because of the tedious hours my classmate spent writing out detailed solutions for questions and that 4 hour-long tuition he put in. o.0 not to mention uncle dennis' kind act of sending over the physics bible --- THE TYS!!! :D
but that aside, i really feel like posting, because ive not done it in a long long time. i dont suppose there will be a 'sequel' to the previous post, because i kinda forgot =( oh well.
hm. you know, sometimes i wish i had less choices to make. flipping through the different possibilites almost always gives me a headache at the end of the day, thanks to the very opinionated voices in my head. and even so, im still at a loss when the day is through, so that's hardly being productive, is it?
well, the point is.. i have many decisions to make at this point that will drastically affect my life in the future. im at the bone fide crossroads of my life and i know none the better. practicality or idealism? 2 years ago i would have barked IDEALISM in no time, but now i hesitate. i want both.. im greedy!!! =(
but as it is, you cant have your cake and eat it too. and i really dont want to be the kid in the playground again, running around from equiptment to equiptment, wanting to try all, but eventually going up on none because i spend so much time queue-jumping. ;/
and i really am a big carrot...
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hey hey oh no you sound really stressed out!! post will be on its way tomorrow! things ehre suck too... but i've a feeling you've got it worse dear... are you contemplating not coming back? we need to chat online some time soon to catch up! it's been too long! must TAKE CARE alright? MUACK!!
haha my dear me still coming back:D just feel that its SUCH a big decision either way!!!
and i'm an even bigger rabbit!
i love my rabbit!!! hehe he nibbles quite, quite well lol
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