just before i posted the previous entry, i felt extremely horrible. it's that all too familiar, on the verge of breakdown feeling. =/ mmm i'm feeling better now tho, after that long long entry... drained, like. i just KNOW that the depression will sink in later on and i will probably end up crying or something... i mean i'm like 100% sure of this occurrence. i'm not at all surprised. i ALWAYS feel horrible when school's about to start -> there are just 101 things to do.. homework, orchestra practice, and majorly the whole daunting THOUGHT of more homework, more cramming, more ORCHESTRA REHEARSALS up ahead. it totally sucks to think that we are STILL having orchestra rehearsals (and on tuesdays, wednesdays, fridays, and saturdays too) when every other single cca has desisted.

i'm really feeling the pressure now, of everything piling on me... and it's going to be that all too familiar vicious cycle.. i'm about to have the last straw very soon...

THE CONCERT .......... IT HAS TO BE GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s: hey mike, if you are reading this, i just want to apologize for snapping at you the other day. i was in a really foul mood. anyways i don't mean it, and yup, i'm sorry. thanx for the 2nd email tho, it really made things alot better =) cheers.