first day o'school

on the first day of school i relinquished a post. two you if think about it. not that i minded actually giving it to someone else. the very fact that it was mine for the taking for that 15 minutes was good enough. i hated the symbolism of it though. that i was slowly giving up parts of my life here. that i was pulling away. i had the same sensation in anderson, when i decided that i would leave for hcjc. there is a heaviness that i cannot shrug off, because when the first step is taken, the other steps quickly follow. and before long, nothing will be left of me, but the shadow and memories of being.