becoming someone else

argh my head is spinning now.

i do not like the person ive become recently. so superstitious so desperate. so... pathetic.

from today onwards this phase will pass. as i shed all that stupid emo baggage of mine.
it has to, i cannot carry on like this.


"...gradually her optimism is fading, her once light footsteps have become lead laden. she has walked so far since the beginning. now, with feet calloused and raw, she doesnt want to carry on. the tears that accompanied the making of her scars have long dried. there were simply no more tears to cry. she no longer yearns for that pot of gold beneath the metaphorical rainbow. she will look no longer, search no further. for she is exhausted, and will rest."