possessions

we dont possess our possessions as much as our possessions possess us. today i broke (indirectly, my dad did the actual breaking) my brother's gaming pc cd. i feel sad about its desmise, if you might call it that... i somehow feel that things have a soul of their own, and by breaking them, i kill them. when i was younger, i used to fling my toys around when im angry, only to pick them up later and feel bad about it as though i had somehow hurt their feelings. following that id apologize and put them back to where they belong. neurotic? kinda i guess.

even now, when i look at toys i dont play with (which is practically all of them!) i would think they look lonely and pitiful =/ im seriously outta my mind! ok i gotta convince myself that the cd is doing more damage than good to my brother... but i still feel miserable. =( my goodness why doesnt that boy ever listen? i really wish he'll grow up.

aches and pains

currently suffering from post-gym aches. ugh. i cant believe i have neck muscles to ache... discovered a knee problem when i tried to straighten my knee today... cant straighten it fully. when i try to the marrow at the joint hurts like #%^$^&%^. oh well we'll see how it goes.

hope to get the bikini tomorrow :P

post exam posting flurry

on to a happier note, school-based exams have ended for GOOD following the 'successful' completion of the chemistry paper on thursday. :D so right now i have allocated the rest of september for play, and only to study (and i really mean study!!) when october rolls along. sounds good? certainly does!

beginning to love gymnastics more and more, and more and more and more! haha i could practically live in the gym, if not for the fact that they're gonna charge me SG220 a month to do that. did a whole lot today after the horrific performance that was friday. for some reason i just couldnt stay on the beam, and i felt oh so sluggish =/ thankfully all that wasnt present today... amazingly my back didnt hurt from the back stretch Fang did for me. maybe she didnt pull all that hard this time but im hoping its cuz im becoming more flexible lol! unfortunately, the same cannot be said for my hip abductor muscles. while the old injury has more or less healed, the other leg is slowly dying. dont ask me why, i really dont know. its frustrating tho, more than anything else. =/

i stuck to my post-lesson schedule today and did abit of conditioning, and i also ironed out a few rough spots in the area of handspring, back handspring, front walkover, and beam work. a few notable improvements are, i hope, my pirouettes on beam, which initially resembled more of a flopping jellyfish than anything, and bars bars bars. not that i managed to accomplish much but hey i did a back hip circle ALL BY MYSELF today. :) of course, along the way i killed my hip bone and ripped my hands again... but oh well all part and parcel of training i guess!

and here's what i thought i would never ever ever say, from the first time i did it and fell on my face. my favorite apparatus is the BEAM. its marvy, every time i do something new on it its like conquering the old devil. amazing sense of satisfaction. i love it! :D hope to do more and much better real soon! cant wait for wednesday to roll around ;)

i wish

i had gone out with the class on thursday. the past few days have been crap. ive never felt so bad before =/ if you know what i am talking about, you are probably jieying :) thanks girl, think you're really an awesome awesome friend and a very mature one at that! apologies for all that crap and time wasting i put you through on friday...

again, i have to write

okay, today i learnt a lesson. sim lim square is THE place to shop if you know the ropes, but, not, if you are 1)a greenhorn at electronics 2)confused 3)a pushover. which, unfortunately, i was all of those. honestly, those salesman can talk circles around you... or maybe its just me. i hella got conned. and i cant refund the stuff cuz its conveniently stated in my receipt that 'goods sold are non-refundable and non-exchangeable'. dad is so pissed at me... and the thing is, i think i deserve it. the other camera that he wanted (which i didnt get for some screwed up, utterly amazing reason) indeed looks marvy. check it out here -> www.sinvision.com.sg yeah. i might as well advertise for that other poor store that i didnt patronise. im gonna get my dad another awesome camera when i save up / earn the money. i feel bad and pissed at the salesman all at the same time. sigh. just another note, 64mb memory cards do NOT cost SG88. =(

and now, burn in hell you bloody man!!! roawrr.

aight night.

just gotta note this down (still on hiatus)

eng-traditional chinese document translation is fun! hehe its my newest hobby yay!

facelift

i feel its time for the blog to put on some new colors. im thinking hallowe'en. will be back after the mind-numbing examinations just in time for Oktoberfest ;) so for now, THIS BLOG IS ON HIATUS.