Tuesday, March 28, 2006

the fool

the fool, he went out to dine
in haste he drank alot of wine

the liquor acted on his mind
as he saw a fat feline

he thought it was a lady fine
and asked, will you be my valentine?

- just a little something i came up with, amidst the smothering workload. =S

physics is over and done. which is good. but that was only the first paper.
which is bad. very bad, i might add.

on a brighter note, i found a little pocket of peace and quiet today. think i'll be going there to study quite often. its out in the open, at a nice quaint picnic table, quite, quite undisturbed (if you exclude the little monkeys of homo sapiens who run around at various intervals). its not in ndmc per se though. :P

might just decide to bring a book there to read some day. :) now if they'd only plant a few trees in that spot...

hehe i really must catch up on my reading after this madcap exam bundles up and goes.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

2:35am

i should really be studying, for ive 3 more chapters of physics to go and i really want to do well, if only because of the tedious hours my classmate spent writing out detailed solutions for questions and that 4 hour-long tuition he put in. o.0 not to mention uncle dennis' kind act of sending over the physics bible --- THE TYS!!! :D

but that aside, i really feel like posting, because ive not done it in a long long time. i dont suppose there will be a 'sequel' to the previous post, because i kinda forgot =( oh well.

hm. you know, sometimes i wish i had less choices to make. flipping through the different possibilites almost always gives me a headache at the end of the day, thanks to the very opinionated voices in my head. and even so, im still at a loss when the day is through, so that's hardly being productive, is it?

well, the point is.. i have many decisions to make at this point that will drastically affect my life in the future. im at the bone fide crossroads of my life and i know none the better. practicality or idealism? 2 years ago i would have barked IDEALISM in no time, but now i hesitate. i want both.. im greedy!!! =(

but as it is, you cant have your cake and eat it too. and i really dont want to be the kid in the playground again, running around from equiptment to equiptment, wanting to try all, but eventually going up on none because i spend so much time queue-jumping. ;/

and i really am a big carrot...

Friday, March 17, 2006

poopamania

im so so tired today! never felt this tired since i last crawled through coachie's crazy conditioning sets!

[argh. just remembered that ive got script writing to attend to... will post soon.. i hope!!!]

TO BE CONTINUED

Monday, March 06, 2006

I wanna be Cristina!

Meredith Grey
69% confidence, 68% compassion, 76% dedication

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she can become a little too distracted with her personal affairs,
particularly ones involving ?McDreamy?.



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Sunday, March 05, 2006

WTF!

been working on physics the entire morning and each question plays around with my brain like its playdough. its driving me insane!!!! so WHEN do we need to factor in gravity in a particle that is travelling HORIZONTALLY and when do we not?!?! w%#%^$%&%& there's a thousand and one formulas and a multitude of methods to each question... i honestly feel like just giving up. and it doesnt help that the book ASSUMEs you kno the reason behind each step. plus all other educational material i have are in chinese. GOD DAMN IT!

On Religion...

The following is an excerpt from Scott Adams' (yes, the man behind bespectacled Dilbert) e-book, God's Debris.

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“Look,” I said, “four billion people believe in some sort of God and free will.
They can’t all be wrong.”

“Very few people believe in God,” he replied.

I didn’t see how he could deny the obvious. “Of course they do. Billions of people believe in God.”

The old man leaned toward me, resting a blanketed elbow on the arm of his rocker.

“Four billion people say they believe in God, but few genuinely believe. If people believed in God, they would live every minute of their lives in support of that belief. Rich people would give their wealth to the needy. Everyone would be frantic to determine which religion was the true one. No one could be comfortable in the thought that they might have picked the wrong religion and blundered into eternal damnation, or bad reincarnation, or some other unthinkable consequence. People would dedicate their lives to converting others to their religions.

“A belief in God would demand one hundred percent obsessive devotion, influencing every waking moment of this brief life on earth. But your four billion so-called believers do not live their lives in that fashion, except for a few. The majority believe in the usefulness of their beliefs—an earthly and practical utility—but they do not believe in the underlying reality.”

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. “If you asked them, they’d say they believe.”

“They say that they believe because pretending to believe is necessary to get the benefits of religion. They tell other people that they believe and they do believer-like things, like praying and reading holy books. But they don’t
do the things that a true believer would do, the things a true believer would have to do.

“If you believe a truck is coming toward you, you will jump out of the way. That is belief in the reality of the truck. If you tell people you fear the truck but do nothing to get out of the way, that is not belief in the truck. Likewise, it is
not belief to say God exists and then continue sinning and hoarding your wealth while innocent people die of starvation. When belief does not control your most important
decisions, it is not belief in the underlying reality, it is belief in the usefulness of believing.”

“Are you saying God doesn’t exist?” I asked, trying to get to the point.

“I’m saying that people claim to believe in God, but most don’t literally believe. They only act as though they believe because there are earthly benefits in doing so. They create a delusion for themselves because it makes them happy.”

“So you think only the atheists believe their own belief?” I asked.

“No. Atheists also prefer delusions,” he said.

“So according to you, no one believes anything that they say they believe.”

“The best any human can do is to pick a delusion that helps him get through the day. This is why people of different religions can generally live in peace. At some level, we all suspect that other people don’t believe their own religion any more than we believe ours.”

Saturday, March 04, 2006

How long will YOU last?

before you turn bad like moldy cheese (except that in your case you wouldnt make a gourmet apperitif)...

got this website from a classmate who took the very interesting elective (or so i am told) Doctor and Society.

seemed awfully fitting that an Insurance company came up with such a test which attempts to calculate your estimated time of demise. which seems a tad bit morbid to me! but do try out the various options of the questionnaire, the graphics are amusing in a very cartoonish fashion :P i am supposed to live till age 91, provided that nothing too bad crosses my path. a slight tad too long in my opinion o.0 wahah. assuming we retire at 65, that would mean 26 years without income! how am i going to survive that i really dont know ><

anyways, go try it out and hah, see if you outlive me!!!
Longevity Game